LoveinChaos is my personal mantra, fully adopted in 2004. Living in the NY metropolitan area (shout out to Brooklyn of course) for the majority of my adult life, I came to the conclusion that it is chaos! What a revelation, right?
In and around the mid to late 90’s I slowly began the search for a more peaceful existence to really listen to both my heart and head. Socially, I shut down for a few years and activated the daily exercise of more patience and tolerance for the energy of city living, instead of fleeing. I’ve moved my exit strategy more times than I can count, accepting that this energy I call chaos also still energizes me.
The emergence of LoveinChaos came about once I also accepted that Moody, a nickname I had embraced on stage as an Open Mic Hostess and Singer was much more of a character than a writing movement, for me. In order to embrace this side of me, I had to inject a long term goal for the journey. Moody was quieted.
I began to explore my personal journal and noticed a recurring theme, Love. Trust me I am no flower child but as life started to catch up with me I sought quiet. In New York? A bit contrarian no? Yet, in my quiet space, I started to truly see that no matter what my action, my intention was and is Love: protective, sentimental, tough, soft, warm, passionate, intimate, playful, guarded, even foolish. In the act of accepting chaos as a constant, I began to calmly, confidently and still gradually, add my creative voice to life once again with LoveinChaos.
I even had a (too large) band for a hot minute too. They were diligent in exploring my Pongs: Poetry in song. I so appreciate their patience with and toward me…
As I write and share my loves, a favorite theatrical phrase, “from the page to the stage”, often plays in my head. The phrase was first heard and learned through the teachings of one of my dearly departed mentors, Joan C. Bedinger and I do believe, in all my rambling(s), creativity will make it to the stage again.
“All the world’s a stage” and I’ve lived some interesting episodes too, so I’m sharing some of my LoveinChaos in the hopes that it translates, visually.
~Lisa G. Humphrey
